appearance versus reality

i might seem fine

that couldnt be further from the truth 

 i  may look happy 

but  likelihood is  im trying not to cry

  i  seem to be staring  

to be honest  im trying to escape from this overwhelming world you call reality 

 i have so many quirks 

 but   all i see is a total  freak 

   i may appear  thin  and lacking of figure

in my eyes however im far from slim  

 i appear to be rude 

truthfully i dont know how to commmunicate properly 

it seems like im  choosing to do all this

thats hardly so   rather  im  broken inside