Because I loved you, I got the side no one else see’s. You’re an oppressive, jealous, hot head and you were obsessed with me. You threaten me with your suicide, I drowned in your lies. You killed the girl I was before I met you, and that wasn’t very kind. You’d tell me I was perfect, just to knock me back down to size. One girl can’t fix all your problems, no matter how I hard I tried. I had to kiss you in public, or else you’d start to cry. “It has to be I love you, Julie, because love you sounds like a lie”.

Because I loved you, you took my happiness, my self worth, my life. 24/7 attention all the time. “You took too long to shower”, “Who were you with?”, I couldn’t do anything that you weren’t involved with. You’d show me off like I was your possession, then you’d douse me with depression. Love shouldn’t have given me a mental condition. You drug me down with you, when I tried to fly. My whole life was falling apart and I didn’t know why.

Because I loved you, I stopped loving myself. I was exactly what you wanted, I hated my myself. I turned away from my artwork, because they contained the color of your eyes. I stopped talking to people, and dressing for me. I had a life with no quality, and no gurantee. I couldn’t say goodbye, for fear of what would be. Would he really kill himself, if he didn’t stay with me. I don’t know what was scarier, his death or the thought of me considering mine.

Because I love ME, I let you go. And no better victory comes to mind. You and your friends piled on the harrassment, and threats. You can’t harm someone who mentally has nothing left. Silly boys, you can’t scare a girl who was in Hell for 6 months. I started breathing again, I saw the light, and most importantly I learned how to fight. You may have ended the girl I was but who I am now is grateful. She’s an artist with a purpose, a goddess with a misssion, and she puts herself first. I see and thrist for the beauty of the world as I watch you destroy yours. Sorry, not sorry as I pray for you at night.