BOOM
BOOM
Are those gunshots or fireworks
Was that the cops
I just heard
Or is it that I’ve heard those sirens so much
that they are scratched into my brain
Why do I know those sounds so well
When I learned about police brutality
I was young
A little too young
I was scared
And confused
And I didn’t understand
I’ve had this fear of looking stupid
Of seeming stupid my whole life
So I didn’t ask any questions
But I had so many
What did he do?
Why did they kill him?
Why did they shoot him down where he stood?
Why didn’t the police help them?
Can I still wear my hoodies?
I like them
they’re comfortable.
But I am not allowed to be comfortable
I need to be alert at all times
I need to make sure I am never caught doing anything suspicious
When I see an officer
I need to say yes sir or no sir
Yes ma’am or no ma’am
my hands cannot be in my pockets
I cannot play with water guns in the street
Only in the back yard
Never wear all black
Don’t smile too hard
Or look too mad
Don’t sigh and don’t blink
Or speak unless spoken to
Because when your mama kissed your forehead
She was praying that her baby comes back safely
My big brother wanted to be a police officer and when I found out about this
I wondered why my brother would want that
Why he’d want to be like one of those heartless men
I am still scared
And confused
And I do not understand