Bottled Up Words
There is a lot that I would say to you, if only you would hear.
I would speak of how you hurt me and of how I hid my feelings from you.
Maybe then you would understand, why everytime you said that I was nothing but a disappointment-- I believed you.
You yelled at me everyday, I knew you would.
It was easier just to say that I did not matter, that I was the cause of your problems instead of admitting that everything wrong was you.
I was just a little girl, and all I needed was you.
A young girl just wants their father.
Just wants to be loved.
So why was I never enough for you?
Why did I not matter?
What did I do wrong?
I grew up.
I learned to move on knowing all the while that you would never care.
I gave up.
The decision had been made that you were hazardous to my mental health and I cut you off.
Don't come back and act like nothing is wrong.
You hurt me.
This is me telling you, I have finally moved on.