BREAK...Ready?

Tell me how to take this Tell me how do I tell a love to love but to not hold? How do I forget Why them And why am I the instrument of repeat? I don't want the harm. I don't want to go I'd like to stay but something pulls. How can this be? How were we built? Tell me how does this all work? Stuck in between. Dying in between. But I don't want to lose me.... I don't want to lose. But in order to win I need to lose everything... I don't think I'm ready for that. The more I wait the longer I stay in the ground The sooner I choose The sooner I can get out Hod can all of this work ? Why can't I speak? I don't want you to hear my poison filled words... Can I get a responce? Can I get some kind f hope? Let me out before I break... Please? How can I help us if I can't touch you anymore? How can I live if I am lying to us both. You are a love that lives and burns so strong... But my brain lit up for that one... Who is going to be ok? My brain and heart they die tragically. They hurt ever so badly.... No rest at night.. No rest during the day... Listen to my eyes. They show you all the love I can't speak. It's not the present you gave me... But the confussion I caused myself. You shouldn't have to suffer. But neither should I... I don't want to go and you shouldn't have to either. I don't know how much longer I can hold. I don't know where this rope ends I don't want to break. I want to stand. But I don't know for how long I can... Can you understand? Can you? Can I hide and run until I'm ready to break? I promise I just need fresh air and to breathe.... Please let me? I really want to breathe one last time before I break.... let me try before I'm ready to break... Can you feel the choke too? I'm sorry. I didn't mean too. I know you're just as bad. I'm so lost and confused. You need me. I need you. So why does my brain interfere? I don't understand? How can this be? It's really hard to be free... I'm not ready. I can't be... I can't break...