External alterego.

Shes the me I allow you to know.

The true me, the deep me, the real me

We hide behind our alteregos shadow.

Ive got questions in my head that are better off unanswered.

Im afraid the truth is much more than I can handle.

they say a fool speaks, a wise man listens.

I wonder what both makes of you.

How can I focus when my minds gone?

Wandering through tunnels trying to find an outting.

looking for my emotions in the lyrics of a song.

I sit here infront of you with a blank stare

constantly mistaken for someone who doesn't care.

If you only knew how complex my mind can actually be

would you be able to bare the terrifying thoughts that I see?

My minds warped & now everyday is full of trying.

trying to forget, trying to rebuild, trying to find motivation without these pills.

You'll never understand ones pain until you've felt it yourself

But you can never understand, you'll never try.

Thats why whenever you shake my hand, you avoid my eyes.

My eyes that reveal the pain, the struggle, the girl on the verge of going insane.