this is bullshit one more look and i swear i'm going to throw up

no excuse of why i still traped in this ditch

why am i still here being aquanted

with an ass of a man

and still i'm aquanted with sin

blamed myself for moving in

but i'm still hectic

of this pain deep down i still love

but you have no love you

just have a choice

i love you

please you tollerate me

ever since i was a child you just been making me feel down

and that day you chocked me i wanted to grap a knife a stab the

shit out of you

my sister has the ordacite to say faith forgive him

i'm sorry was that you

you think i could forget that pain deep inside of me

i'm lost

why mom

is he drinking still

it only get's wrost

you know we don't like that shit

yes your a lost cause

yes i'm tired of you

yes i'm saying this from my emotions of feelings

but understand this

have you made me feel different

can you speak for yourself

or has you getting fired from your job

making you a little bitch

always nagging always

going to dear mom like she's going to

solve your problems

i wish you just stop this shit

always using us as your petty excuse of your problem

stay in a childs place

no this bitch needs to be replaced staring at the same who's suppose to be my father

who the fuck told him to fall out of place

he's suppose to be perfect

suppose to be my father

your not suppose to mess up

i don't see shit in your eyes but regret because your nothing to me

and i hate everything you've become

can't you see i have no father

your the only one

because my other father dead to me

can't even stomach the fact that he likes to chill with me

i get tired of his bullshit excuse

don't even kick it with me

like he use to

and i hate the fact that he's cheating on his wife

even if his wife's a bitch and tends to fuck up everything else

fuck with other girls and then but's his work clothes on like his getting ready for work

can't even stomach the fact of it

cause that shit hurt

stay in a child's place

but it's effecting me as a child

so why am i still here

let me know when my place begins