Coals
I feel my nose burning
And I smile
Because I know that means
The tears are coming
They'll sting
My breath will catch
My hands will shake
My eyes will turn
That turquoise blue
And I smile
Because I know
You'll think
They look beautiful
You'll love the tears
As they fall
Because they'll send me
To your shoulder
In shame
And secretly
You'll love the power
I opened my palms
And let everyone's pain
Hit them like coals
And I took them
Like the sun
And they burned
But I stood
Scrunching my nose
And parting my lips
So I look brave
And they applaud
But tonight
The fire will well
To the skin
In the tips of my fingers
And I'll press them to my cheeks
And burn so bright
You'll see my lungs
Fighting to reach the air
Sometimes it just gets heavy
I tell you
My tears usually find
The floor of my closet
But as I'm driving
I'm screaming
And I can't see the road
So you become my eyes
You whisper my name
Again and again
But you say nothing else
And I hate you for that
And I hate you
For the shoulder
You make me use
Because I can feel your smile
Behind my back
And I miss
The tear-stained floor
Of my closet
Because it's warm there
And the carpet dulls the pain
But, you
You place your hands on my chest
And you push the coals deeper
You want them to find my heart
Because if my heart
Catches fire
Then you won't have to love me anymore.