Controdiction
My smiling mask that feels real in the moment
My hands tha want to reach for the razer that feel real then
My love for life that feels like it will never end
My want to be done struggling no matter what
My mind is a controdiction
One moment joy and the next termoil
I seem happy to those on the outside and maybe I am but those times are short
When all starts to fall around me, that is also who I am
I don't seem like a real person
How can I live in two minds and still be one?
That is the life of depression
That has been my life for way to long
This is where the controdiction ends
Not by gun or rope but by healing
I have to find healing because controdiction is far to hard