Hello

Im the little corner in your brain

Yes you dont like me very much

Im the place where your tics stem from

And we both know we are not talking about bugs

We are speaking about

How i can make you

Gasp over and over again until you can’t breathe

Or perhaps if im feeling nice

I wont make the vocal tics come to life

It will only be the head bopping

Neck turning

Until you get a kink in your neck

So then you can’t sleep well for a week

Or ohhh my favorite

I can make you hit your phone to your nose

In double incraments

And I will whisper

“Stop hitting yourself, stop hittiling yourself”

And fine if i’m feeling generous

And you are really nervous in public

I’ll just have you pick at the calice on your hand I have made for you

But dont worry

When you get home you will tic

And it will be excruciating

Yet entertainment for me

I love being able to tell you what to do

And if you refuse the tics

Then well

I will just SCREAM in your EAR over and over and over again

TOMI TOMI TOMI

TIC

TIC

TIC

EVERYONE NOTICES

YOUR TOURETTES

That will definitely break you down

To only me

And make you tic

The rest of your brain

Is irrelevant to me

I own you

You are just a person made up tics

 

Me:

ARLIGHT THAT’S IT

QUIT IT

You don’t get to speak in my ear all of the damn time

I have my own brain

My own voice

Fine I have accepted you into my life

But I will not let you control my life

You are not my conscience

You are the smallest thing that makes up me

Fine whisper in my ear the bad things you want to make me do

But maybe

Ask me to do things like

Sneak my dad’s last piece of cake

Take the piece of candy

Or stay up past midnight

NOT TO JUST TIC OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN

My mind will not take a million voices all of the time anymore

This not a question

This is a request

A demand

Quit being like the boy

Who thought he owned my body

If you are in my body you are a guest

No not a welcomed guest

But we must negotiate

So I can stop worrying about if in ten years

When im teaching an english class

If they will notice my tourettes syndrome

So maybe whisper in my ear

You can get through the day

You are strong

You dont need to tic to feel calm

But if you do

Its okay

Embrace it

Let it go

On to the next moment

You see whispers like that

From you

Would be so much better

Rather than having a tug of war with my mind

Because yes i will win

But it will be one of the most exhausting fights of my life

No more conversations like this

No more of your monolugues

Because again you are a guest

Let me speak before you

And no stop whispering at me to yell the word cat

I will not yell it

Ever

No more begging

The other tics

I can handle

It helps sometimes to have them

Relases the stress

But not when it is forced upon me

Quit raping my mind

For I am not yours to take

Tourettes syndrome

You may belive that I am weak

That is such a misconception

Doubt me

I will prove you wrong

But lets be civilized

Ask me to take the last piece of the cake

Whisper positivity

And

We could finally be united with a cause

Not tug of war

TS.