A Cry, A Weep and a Sob
I often cry
not a sob or a weep
but a cry
a cry that comes from wondering why?
why am i not good enough?
why do I consistently mess up?
Sometimes I weep
not a cry or a sob
but a weep
of pain where I wallow
leaving me empty and hollow
Rarely I sob
not weep nor cry
but sob
so gut wrenching
it makes my chest throb
I often cry, sometimes I weep and rarely sob
though their levels differ the tears never stop
You see my pain isn't a cycle
it doesn't come in waves
it consistent
like still water
like the ocean spreading deeper and farther
my misery isn't a phaseit won't just pass
it's a trickester
one day it lifts me the next im dropped on my ass
im so used to the pain
so used to the misery
that it consumes me
The darkeness coating me like a second skin
can't tell where my melanin begins
Oh misery I crave you
I crave the dark
even though its tearing me apart
it's a delicious kind of torture
and an addiciting kind of horror
my body is a house of darkness
what is light and happiness...
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