Dear Black Boy
Dear Black boy,
I've seen fear accompany your eyes
I've seen it take up the empty seats next to you,
and I've seen you two walking side by side
down dark avenues that always lead to nowhere
I've witnessed it manipulating your thoughts
making you work like a backward clock to its ticking songs
and I know that you've befriended it
because you've never tried to fight it away,
but only come to terms with the depression it brought along the way
Dear Black boy,
You've found comfort in sleeping in the storm
Where everyone sees you as just a Black boy,
just a statistic, the stereotypical no emotions no feelings Black boy
Dry your eyes, don't cry, no tears
The dry hard drought, the El Niño,
sucking life out of life,
you are to be feared
Again fear happens to linger around you
like cops in Black neighborhoods where fear
can be the reason for them to kill a son, a brother, a friend
Where fear is the reason
Dear Black Boy,
the oppressor is not as effective when you see that even he
is diseased with the same disease that seeps through your being
and you struggle with self-identity
because everyone sums you up as the portrayal from tv,
the dead-beat ex-boyfriend,
a convict, felon, drug dealer on the streets,
they don't give you any room to be
We don't give you any room to be,
So I can't blame you for being afraid,
and clutching on to fear like a friend from first grade
Dear Black boy,
The world for you is a dark maze that appears to be only one way out
because fear strips you of self-consciousness
and you are left to find self-awareness on your own
Mama loves you but she ain't go be around for too long
Brother and sister love you
But they tired of you calling their phone
Your girl loves you,
but she can't love you
like you can love yourself,
and your trynna love,
but you never loved
and your stuck
Dear Black boy,
When a woman is ready to love you don't be afraid
Don't let fear strip your blessings away!
It's done enough in the time being,
It's spoken enough--too much!
Accompanied you to too many job interviews, relationships, and public places
Black boy,
every day God has given you a reason to not be afraid
and patiently he's been waiting, waiting for you to realize the same
To know that vulnerability is actually the greatest strength
That to cry is apart of the healing process
To be greater than yesterday
Dear Black boy,
for every one of your tomorrows,
you have an empty canvas,
And every color in the world,
Paint.
