That no one was supposed to know because our relationship was shhhh private

And the way he made it sound was so appealing because he said he didn't want anyone to find out about me

And in my heart I smiled because my mind processed that to say he didn't want anyone to take me 

But it never accrued to me that I was his dirty little secret

I mean who would want to tell their friends  I like having sex the fat chick

That she knows how to do a couple of bad tricks

That when we're together we make magic

It never crossed my mind that he was ashamed

And it wasn't a good thing when he pent me up in dark corners and behind locked doors

I just took it to say that he was shy and hated PDA

I can honestly say that I was played

And in the time I didn't believe it because I could truthfully say that somebody wants me

That one person thinks that I am beautiful and my weight means nothing

But it meant everything

Because I didn't fit the part of the trophy wife

And it dawned in me that personality didn't mean anything

Because I didn't have the rack and the waist and the booty that sat so firm and in place

I was the dirty little secret

The shhhhh don't tell a soul

And I was fed lies saying our love was too special and no one should know

But if I'm so special why can't we hold hands in public and go on dates besides the unromantic meetings in your bedroom

If I'm so special why can't I be introduced to your friends

I told you I was more than a quick fix and you told me baby I know that

Then if you know so well than why am I such a shhhhh secret

Please tell me 

Am I not good enough for you to be with me?

And if that's the case than please tell me why you came to me

I'm sorry if I don't qualify as a bad bitch 

If I don't pass your friends girlfriend test

If my presence is to disgusting for me to be more than a filthy secret

And one more thing 

Don't shhhh me one more time because I'm speaking I'm not hiding

You had your game of hide and seek but now it's time for me to run and touch base because I'm here

I'm out in the open for everyone to see 

Take me as I am or leave me

Because I am no ones shhhhhh secret 

And I'm sorry if that's not good enough for you but people have always told me I'm not good at keeping secrets