Diseased Minds
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how do you rid yourself of something
that is inside of you,
a part of you?
do you
try to calm the devil within
or do you
try to dispose of him instead?
will you cut yourself wide open,
let a canyon span across your chest?
do you sit on your knees
and scream,
as if he will follow your breath
out of your lips?
or do you count each
tick of the clock,
like me, and
try to sever your
adhesive veins
with rusty scissor blades?
I am an awaiting time bomb -
there is a thunderstorm
raging deep down in my throat
and the seconds left before
the explosion are ticking
along with my sickly heartbeat
and when my heart bleeds
it blossoms out like a rose
but the thorns are puncturing my lungs,
letting the inferno in -
suffocating me from the
inside out,
yes, the monsters are back
and they are not here to play but
to stir the dark;
yet surely something with
wicked claws and jagged teeth
cannot be any worse
than whatever lurks
deep underneath -
underneath my skin
I am itching,
writhing,
lamenting.
I am just trying to
cleanse myself,
suck the poison out
like a hospital IV
except
I think the demons
are less within me
and more so..
a result of me
as I dart in and out
of humanity and monstrosity.