Dissociating Demons

I have been forced to live with this stranger for 16 years.

It’s not fun living with a basket case.

She is the reason I was shunned by my peers.

It’s not my fault, they have good taste.

 

I want to be talk able to talk without making a mistake,

You need to face the cold, sad fact.

People tell me she’s wonderful and I should cut her brake,

You will always be pathetic and inapt.

 

If they knew what she was thinking, they’d put her in restraints,

We would both be locked up, bunk buddy.

I have seen her thought process and she’s not a saint,

I haven’t gotten you too bloody.

 

She digs her fingernails in my hands.

There are those worse than I am.

She snaps my wrists with rubber bands.

Be glad I didn’t make you cut them.

 

She fills my head with regrets.

You do everything wrong.

She can’t keep any of my secrets.

I’ll show them you don’t belong.

 

I try to prevent those out leaks.

It is fun seeing them gawking.

She doesn’t think before she speaks.

And you never stop talking, talking, talking.

 

She doesn’t like the way I look,

Maybe if you had some self-control,

If flaws were words, she’d write me a book,

You wouldn’t look like a fat troll.

 

She don’t know if she is trying to teach me a lesson,

You wouldn’t get it if I slammed your head into a wall.

For my 12th birthday she gave depression,

You grew weak and I watched you fall.

 

And just to add some variety,

Panic attacks and restless nights,

For my 13th birthday she gave anxiety,

You get edgy and full of fright.

 

So you are not only deeply depressed,

But I’m also aimlessly stressed.

She is annoying, angry, and anxious, and don’t even get me started.

Sadly there is no way for us to be parted.

 

This stranger lives in my brain,

She takes hold of the controls and drives me insane,

I don’t want to live with her anymore,

I want her to change,

I try to fix her problems but she stays the same,

I am scared of myself and it’s her I blame.

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17essweine

I have been forced to live with this stranger for 16 years.

It’s not fun living with a basket case.

She is the reason I was shunned by my peers.

It’s not my fault, they have good taste.

 

I want to be talk able to talk without making a mistake,

You need to face the cold, sad fact.

People tell me she’s wonderful and I should cut her brake,

You will always be pathetic and inapt.

 

If they knew what she was thinking, they’d put her in restraints,

We would both be locked up, bunk buddy.

I have seen her thought process and she’s not a saint,

I haven’t gotten you too bloody.

 

She digs her fingernails in my hands.

There are those worse than I am.

She snaps my wrists with rubber bands.

Be glad I didn’t make you cut them.

 

She fills my head with regrets.

You do everything wrong.

She can’t keep any of my secrets.

I’ll show them you don’t belong.

 

I try to prevent those out leaks.

It is fun seeing them gawking.

She doesn’t think before she speaks.

And you never stop talking, talking, talking.

 

She doesn’t like the way I look,

Maybe if you had some self-control,

If flaws were words, she’d write me a book,

You wouldn’t look like a fat troll.

 

She don’t know if she is trying to teach me a lesson,

You wouldn’t get it if I slammed your head into a wall.

For my 12th birthday she gave depression,

You grew weak and I watched you fall.

 

And just to add some variety,

Panic attacks and restless nights,

For my 13th birthday she gave anxiety,

You get edgy and full of fright.

 

So you are not only deeply depressed,

But I’m also aimlessly stressed.

She is annoying, angry, and anxious, and don’t even get me started.

Sadly there is no way for us to be parted.

 

This stranger lives in my brain,

She takes hold of the controls and drives me insane,

I don’t want to live with her anymore,

I want her to change,

I try to fix her problems but she stays the same,

I am scared of myself and it’s her I blame.

17essweine

I have been forced to live with this stranger for 16 years.

It’s not fun living with a basket case.

She is the reason I was shunned by my peers.

It’s not my fault, they have good taste.

 

I want to be talk able to talk without making a mistake,

You need to face the cold, sad fact.

People tell me she’s wonderful and I should cut her brake,

You will always be pathetic and inapt.

 

If they knew what she was thinking, they’d put her in restraints,

We would both be locked up, bunk buddy.

I have seen her thought process and she’s not a saint,

I haven’t gotten you too bloody.

 

She digs her fingernails in my hands.

There are those worse than I am.

She snaps my wrists with rubber bands.

Be glad I didn’t make you cut them.

 

She fills my head with regrets.

You do everything wrong.

She can’t keep any of my secrets.

I’ll show them you don’t belong.

 

I try to prevent those out leaks.

It is fun seeing them gawking.

She doesn’t think before she speaks.

And you never stop talking, talking, talking.

 

She doesn’t like the way I look,

Maybe if you had some self-control,

If flaws were words, she’d write me a book,

You wouldn’t look like a fat troll.

 

She don’t know if she is trying to teach me a lesson,

You wouldn’t get it if I slammed your head into a wall.

For my 12th birthday she gave depression,

You grew weak and I watched you fall.

 

And just to add some variety,

Panic attacks and restless nights,

For my 13th birthday she gave anxiety,

You get edgy and full of fright.

 

So you are not only deeply depressed,

But I’m also aimlessly stressed.

She is annoying, angry, and anxious, and don’t even get me started.

Sadly there is no way for us to be parted.

 

This stranger lives in my brain,

She takes hold of the controls and drives me insane,

I don’t want to live with her anymore,

I want her to change,

I try to fix her problems but she stays the same,

I am scared of myself and it’s her I blame.

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