Dream
I keep going back and forth between what I need and what I want.
Hate to dream so when I’m awake I don’t.
Reminisce to relive the good times but it’s gone.
My memory fabricate the things that it wants.
I leave the blinds open so that the night can keep me company.
Soft melodies of hope emerged from the radio as droplets of tears cascaded onto the pillow.
I can’t remember the last time touched I your face with every ounce of grace you made me feel safe you’re such a disgrace.
And yet
I still will give you more.
More of me.
More of what you don’t need.
A woman who have dreams.
What I need is to let you go
Because my dreams said so
But what I want is to hold you close
Your poison leaks slow
Flowing from you to me
I’m held in captivity
Slowly losing the real me
See
A woman who bleeds internally despite what she needs she’ll stay with what he needs
And I guarantee if she leaves he’ll fall to his knees begging her please
Please stay
Please I’ll change
But goes back to his childish ways that got me to this place in the first place.
Crying on my pillow with only music for hope and the shadow of the night to keep me company.
Let it go
Let’s not, not dream no more
I swear there’s hope
So next time I’m woke I wont dream of you but I’ll dream of life with out you.
And too bad I’m filled with dignity and classy because now the world won’t know about you.