Finally, I rose from my sleep

I lifted my brow

Discouraged, disowned

I sunk back and cowered 

For my affections were in vain

And all in place of His name

Always seeking, but never finding

"Waiting on the Lord"

but trying to force His will

Hoping to

And I feel like a child

covered in the mud of immaturity

wearing the stench of frivolity 

creating my reality

When I am the sum of my world

The clouds so opaque

obscuring my view

From gazing upon the heavenly avenue 

leading to your glory

Oh God, be my affections

For all is tainted by my sin

Wash me Lord, outside and in