Faded smile

I wonder how my smile faded away! Like smoke into thin air!! But the past is done and my future seems lush! I wonder!! How the smile has disappeared? Like a drunk, when he drinks! Sometimes its hard to tell!! It's like I was born to Satan's hands, then cast into hell!! My potential is at a peak, where I am beginning to see. But five years from now, who knows where I'll be? Still locked into a cell or a doctor, Where my potential and worth is a "was"-a thing of past! So vast my dreams and goals, Thing I aspire to achieve! Its daily struggle for me to believe, That a woman still wants to give me a kiss with her love!! To believe that a woman still wants to see me smile! And tell me I am so cute! I see that I have blossomed into a wonderful man!! Oh mother!! Though I didn't have poor roots. Out of sight, out of mind, damn its a shame! Time waits for none, and no one sees my tears! I am 19 years young! Sometimes my soul feels 80, like its almost done! I wonder!! I wonder!! I failed to search my faded smile