Fear

I'm always scared of everything.

Dogs, heights, cows, crazy people...

But I'm mostly scared of you.

I'm scared of the power you have over me

and you don't even know it.

You smile at me and my whole day changes.

You have no idea

that sometimes I just stare,

stare at you when you're not looking.

I'm scared one day you'll notice though.

What would you say?

I can't love my best friend.

I'm too scared.

That stupid girl flirted with you

and I just about died.

I thought,

no, I worried,

about you and her

for days and days.

Your unkown power over me.

And then you told me you didn't care about her

and my heart leaped for joy

and my stomach did the salsa

while my intestines danced a tango,

but my face didn't show any of this to you.

You can't know.

You can't know your power.

I would rather face all my greatest fears

than give you relationship advice one more time.

Here is my relationship advice:

Date me!

How can you not see

that all along,

all these years,

I've been falling for you?

How can you not see

the power you have over me?

I'm scared to death.

Scared that you'll never know and find some girl.

I'll be at your wedding.

But what if I tell you?

What if I ruin our friendship 

because you truly only ever saw me as

"one of the guys"?

I'm not a guy.

I'm the girl who's so scared.

Scared because I'm in love with you.