There it goes again

a metal door slamming shut on everything

I want to get to know you, to show you

But I'm afraid

 

You mean the world to me

Your eyes sparkle in a way only I can see

But the words won't come, I can barely breathe

All because I am afraid

 

I wish I didn't fear my failure

and in the same vein, my success

I'm a screaming child in an adult's skin

I'm a disasterous, confused mess

 

I wish I could say what I mean

but words won't come, I silently scream

fear shakes and quakes me, I can't come clean

I'm just too afraid

 

Can I cut this fear away like a disease?

Just freeze it off so it doesn't seize

my heart, my feelings and buckle my knees

I don't want to be afraid.