Forgiven

Let me tell you,

It took a while

Took fifteen years to understand

Things with you will never change.

 

My friends don't worry about missing dad.

Don't wonder when they'll see him next.

They walk down the long street,

With dad leading the way.

 

I don't get to be daddy's lil girl,

You never gave me the option.

Notucking in bed followed by a goodnight kiss,

Feeling safe in your strong arms.

Don't get to see the little boy version of me

Not by his side while he grows tall

Or when he cries

Or laughs.

You and baby brother are my family

And it took me my lifetime to accept,

That this is how things will always be.

 

But,

I forgive you.

I forgive you for...

Not driving a long hour to see us,

Or for choosing the women in black

Instead of your girls under the white sheets.

We lay in bd, late at night

Wishing that you gave us your love

But, instead you would give them roses.

 

We needed you.

We needed you to hold us in sad times,

Tuck us in and a goodnight ,

To keep us safe,

To guide us down the curvy, long street.

To be our rock.

But, there's always a light at the end of the tunnel, right?

So, if you were to apologize, I would accept it

Only because mommy said,

"He's the best dad he knows how to be."