Frozen in Time

Location

United Kingdom
53° 43' 8.5008" N, 2° 4' 22.0224" W

Tried to run away in my teens and 20's,

Found myself in a maze,

Lost,

Often at the beginning again. 

 

This journey I've been on had huge mountains,

Became very tiring,

Landscape,

Often leading to a dead end. 

 

The harder and deeper I pushed,

The more traumatised I became.

I now know what it feels like to be a hamster on a wheel,

Or a proud lion in the zoo.

 

Groundhog day,

Has been my familiar friend,

Coupled with years,

Heartache and misery.

 

What am I to do,

To let go,

This deep melancholy,

A gun, a rope, or a high rise too?

 

Thoughts of exiting,

Very tantalising

Yet am all too aware of

The catastrophic effects too.

 

I'm at half way point,

Life's journey

Yet feel there's so much

I need to do.

 

Please help me

Because resourcefully,

Tried too much,

Emotionally and physically spent. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

This poem is about: 
Me
My family
My community
My country
Our world

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