Gagged
It was so hard to remeber it.
How wrong and awful it was.
How much I hated it.
But the hardest thing to remember is that I consented.
There was no going back.
It was a wretched design, a foolish one.
I feel now what I felt then in that bed in that room, so cold.
It was all so malignantly cold and I didn't really want to.
Good thing I'm an actress, he wouldn't suspect a thing.
Bad thing I'm an actress, he didn't suspect a thing.
Like the good little actress would,
I descended into this role assigned the moment I said yes.
An Oscar worthy performance
That no one will ever see.
And it was so cold.
I turned away,
Shivering, wanting to sleep.
He reminded me why I was there.
I slipped out of dreaming and let him kiss me.
My mind carried off in dreams
But I'm no astral projectionist.
But I will say this,
That was the last night I would ever let myself be an actress with anyone.
Not when it isn't truth.