to the girl i pushed away
to the girl i pushed away,
you and i could’ve been cosmic sky beams
we could’ve been one another’s worlds and more
but life gets to me and the universe in my eyes is not as it seems
what was once us is now a shell lacking its core
i don’t know if there’s any value in me
you disagreed but maybe that’s how you held it together
you cried, you sobbed, you refused to flee
but i helped by severing your tether
if there is love out there
you are the only reason for its existence
i pushed you away because i thought it unfair
that you be chained to me; the only solution was distance
beauty, a foolish word you long outgrew,
was written by a man who knew not
how his word paled in comparison to you
insufficient: every means of describing you, every thought.
one day you will look back and see
through a carefree avatar, your future self,
you will be glad you left me
our memories will lie in a dusty, forgotten photo album on the shelf
may your wishes be fulfilled without me,b