Going to Church as a Non-Believer

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I never believed much in a god,
after my dad's death especially.
But then I found her,
and it was like I saw God in her face.
She took me to church,
on Wednesdays, sometimes Sundays.
And we held hands through the service,
so tight, I thought, the angels would have to tear us apart.
I loved her so much,
and I started to believe again.
Then her pastor started to shout,
words of negativity about our kind of love.
My heart fell,
for I could not believe a loving god would hate us just for that.
I slowly drifted further from believing, 
and found something new.
But I still went to church,
and sat through the fire and brimstone services.
Then one Sunday, as I got up to leave,
she chased me into the bathroom.
And what happened there, 
led me to never again go to church, as a believer.

This poem is about: 
Me

Comments

Kayly Hernandez Panameno

This is a beautiful poem. I nearly cried when I read it. You build a whole story arc while subtly showing your vulnerability in a magnificient and empowering manner. 

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