There is a certain darkness in the air.
It hangs heavy,
So heavy you can taste it on your tongue.
The bitterness and sadness are so tangible.
I look to my left and to my right and see no escape-
My world is blackened.
You tell me this is for the best, this is what was meant to be,
But I don’t listen.
I yell and I scream and I cry a curse your name!
I wonder- if you love me, how could you do this to me?
How could you take him from me?
Again you tell me it is for the best, that he is in a better place
Released from his pain.
In my head I know you are right,
But in my heart… in my heart I just feel sad and bitter.
My heart denies the knowledge of my head and hopes deeply
That this is all a mistake, he can’t be really be gone.
Can he? He was too young, too kind, too loving.
He didn’t deserve this.
I am so confused, I don’t understand why it had to be his time.
You hear my cries, feel my confusion and you say,
“Trust me, lean on me. This was his time. I do not expect you to understand.
I know it’s hard, but he fulfilled his purpose in life and now it is time
For him to come home.”
I want to scream at you and say, “no, it can’t be true…
Your lying”, but slowly, slowly I begin to accept-
Not just my brain, but every part of me.
For each man- a time to live and a time to die.
I begin to accept that his time has come, his purpose fulfilled.
Though my heart is full of sorrow, I take comfort in knowing-
He has gone home.
He will no longer be plagued by the pain and the ills of this world,
But rather rejoicing in your presence, filled with light, peace,
He is walking on your streets of gold – grand and majestic.
Clothed in white his spirit is reborn into an eternal body.
He has left this world, his temporary home, to enter into his home eternal.