I am in so much pain right now
Im am sitting here with your smile on the top of my head and
it feels like the weight of ten months of love
is crushing my shoulders
I really miss you
but you know what,
I can't be with you any more and you know it
I close my eyes and all I can see is the way you said
'I love you'
and the smell of you fills my mind and
I want more than air, right now,
to feel your arms locked tightly around me
I want more than my whole past, right now,
to hear you say
I want more than all the stars in the sky to say
that I want you
'I want only you'
You loved when I would say that.
I hate to concede, but I know that I must
that the way things where going was bad
I've loved you so well and we pushed it so much
that to part now, in confidence, is sad
I know that things work out the best for those who live in light
but I think I'd rather burn in below than be out of your sight
I sit alone and droop all day, I hope you don't do so,
I grieve and wonder if it's fate that we should have come so low
I'm not sure what I'm getting at here
It's hard to compose a thought when my heart is bleeding into my socks
and my eyes are burning from the tears you squeezed out
You always did like the simpler things in life
Can you hear me when I say that I hate it when guys
turn out to be perfect?
I hated every moment of figuring out that I was going to lose the best thing that ever happened to me
And it was all your fault
So, if I ever see you again please don't say hi or anything
Please, my love, just walk on past
as though I had never been under your spell
as though my love had not been cut off in it's bloody prime
as though the world had not ended the moment I said
'I can't see you anymore'
as though the future hadn't crumbled and
you hadn't moved on
Please be cruel and look through me like the glass girl I am
The fragile, frigid thing I've become outside the warm circle of your embrace
Please hate me for turning you away when we both know I needed you
And I needed you so badly
Please remember the first time we laughed at something stupid together
as though our first meeting had not been a primordial meeting of the minds
as though we had not simply picked up where our souls had left off all those eons ago
Please don't call me anymore,
Don't text me wyd because that just makes me want to end my pain
a rusty stain, on the floor where such wretched things as I am belong
among the throng of refugee and losers
of promisors and choosers
of hurting decisions and hurtinger silence
of crowded train stations and complex defiance
of daring escapes and a grinding ennui
that used to fade and pale with awe with the way you said to me,
'You are my darling gypsy girl. I like the way your hips
invite a future that will last. I love to taste your lips.
I get so fuzzy in the head when you smile sweet at me.
You remind me of the night and baby, can't you see
you make me feel like the world is making an exception to
the rule that says we all live in deception.
Like a thing for which I'd normally be charged a pretty fee
Is being placed right in my hand and grins up gingerly
I take the woman, soft and kind and bundle her up tight
if I love her the way I should I think that Karma might
accept my plea to keep her close and never have to stray
away from my sweet darling girl, in her arms always, I'll stay'
That's something like what you said to me before the tower fell
and crushed the pretty tale we'd spun and broke our tender spell
I can't accept the offerings my inbox says your sending
cause the way your filling up my head with stories is demented
I think the way I'm going on still since the thing was done
says more about the state I'm in than the war for reason won
'I can't see you anymore', is all I had to say and like the gentleman you are
you bow out and walk away
I hope to God in places high our last was not the last
Please sweet beloved boy of mine don't leave the dice uncast
for though I asked you not persist in loving me for now
I hope to God in places high we meet again somehow
I love you more than all the the stars up pasted in the sky
'I love you still'
said Lover Girl
then sadly said 'good bye'