Him
It was something like it's not you it's me type of thing,
I knew from the very beginning I never wanted my heart to get back with you,
so I tried to make sure of that,
stay quiet, stay away, no feelings spoken,
My mistake was agreeing to seeing you again,
Being in your presence like best friends,
What was I doing?
It was wrong and I knew it,
cause I was tryna focus on me,
then I see you,
the whole direction of my eyes changed,
They say you never forget your first love,
I believe it,
Its true,
Its like a hold that it has on you once you connect again,
I was angry at myself because it went too far,
I made un-thoughtout decisions,
got myself in trouble,
fell in love again or better yet never fell out,
just was cool at keeping my feelings to myself,
our past,
time changed and I grew,
my connection with you was more quiet and soulful,
lust tried to creep up in my mind,
but I didn't let it cause I was seeing something that I never did,
communication, understanding, appreciation,
love,
I didn't know what to do,
I was confused,
I wanted you but I knew deep down I wasn't ready to love you,
you put a spark in my heart,
I wanted to explore,
give you more,
but I had to shut it down because I couldn't let it go no further,
Everything you showed me I wanted from the very beginning,
that's what had me shook,
and deep in thought questioning myself,
changing my mind,
but I had to make a decision real quick before something happened that I couldnt take back,
my heart was mad and hurt,
but this wasn't about her,
I had to make a decision and do the right thing,
not one based on my feelings,
maybe I went about it the wrong way,
words not in person,
face to face,
but it had to be done either way,
I didn't get to say goodbye the way I wanted,
or maybe I just didn't know how,
I don't know,
all I know is the love was, is and always will be real,
how I feel no need to go into details,
cause its unexplainable,
I don't really know what true love means but you were my first,
The one,
that no matter what I'll always come back to,
I love you.
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very sincere and honest
do you really deserve this knowing what you went through
something for you to think about
this is a poem that many can relate
this is a part of growing pains-never fool no one with a blind eye
keep writing