Homesick - A Missionary's Perspective

You know that feeling

When you’re at home,

But it doesn’t quite feel that way?

Like you’re missing something deeply important.

In my case, it is a friendship that

I was once able to cherish then and there.

I’ve been a missionary’s kid

 For a good deal of my life.

I’ve had many friends come and go, no problem.

But recently it has been a big problem.

A bond that is so deep

Divided by a distance of 8000 miles.

I came to where I am at an off year.

What I mean by this is

When I stay others go and when I go others stay.

My summer breaks don’t normally

Consist of the friendships made during the year.

Especially not this one.

These past few years have been amazing.

Filled with the construction of an

Inseparable bond between my two friends and I.

But we all knew it was coming.

The time we had to depart,

For not all missionaries are lifelong.

 But of course, we kept that fact stuck in the future,

Until it forced its way into the present,

And with it many sorrowful goodbyes.

However the distance has not the power

To separate our mighty bond.

Due to technology, that is.

Still though, despite the use of internet

I cannot help but feel like I am alone.

Like I've been left by myself.

This is where God should be coming into play,

However I have yet to strengthen my bond with Him,

For my willpower to do so is weak at the moment.

With every passing day and each fall of the sun

And rise of the moon comes new memories.

Recently the pages of mine have been quite blank.

The thing that is keeping me together

Is knowing that someday my friends and I

Will be the crazy idiots we are again, together.

Right now is the reality that my friends are away,

And I am home,

Feeling more homesick than ever.

Why is this you may ask,

How can you feel homesick at home?

Well with a deep meaning in simple words:

Sometimes is it not when I must leave,

But when my friends are to go,

That makes me the most homesick.