Homesick - A Missionary's Perspective
You know that feeling
When you’re at home,
But it doesn’t quite feel that way?
Like you’re missing something deeply important.
In my case, it is a friendship that
I was once able to cherish then and there.
I’ve been a missionary’s kid
For a good deal of my life.
I’ve had many friends come and go, no problem.
But recently it has been a big problem.
A bond that is so deep
Divided by a distance of 8000 miles.
I came to where I am at an off year.
What I mean by this is
When I stay others go and when I go others stay.
My summer breaks don’t normally
Consist of the friendships made during the year.
Especially not this one.
These past few years have been amazing.
Filled with the construction of an
Inseparable bond between my two friends and I.
But we all knew it was coming.
The time we had to depart,
For not all missionaries are lifelong.
But of course, we kept that fact stuck in the future,
Until it forced its way into the present,
And with it many sorrowful goodbyes.
However the distance has not the power
To separate our mighty bond.
Due to technology, that is.
Still though, despite the use of internet
I cannot help but feel like I am alone.
Like I've been left by myself.
This is where God should be coming into play,
However I have yet to strengthen my bond with Him,
For my willpower to do so is weak at the moment.
With every passing day and each fall of the sun
And rise of the moon comes new memories.
Recently the pages of mine have been quite blank.
The thing that is keeping me together
Is knowing that someday my friends and I
Will be the crazy idiots we are again, together.
Right now is the reality that my friends are away,
And I am home,
Feeling more homesick than ever.
Why is this you may ask,
How can you feel homesick at home?
Well with a deep meaning in simple words:
Sometimes is it not when I must leave,
But when my friends are to go,
That makes me the most homesick.
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"You know that feeling / When you’re at home, / But it doesn’t quite feel that way?" All the time, all the time.
"I cannot help but feel like I am alone. / Like I've been left by myself." Being in a long distance relationship, I know that feeling of emptiness too.
I've been feeling homesick. Missing my friends from college and the late nights we had together.
Good poem. keep writing =)
Shinae69
Hey I am an MK too and this is exactly how I feel when I had to let my amazing three God-loving MK friends go back to their "home". This is a prayer I wrote around that day:
Dear Lord,
Why is the human heart so lonely?
Why do we have to leave and to be left by people?
Why is there separation?
Pain of the one who's leaving, reflecting the suffering of the one who's staying.
And this thought repeating again and again:
“It’s gonna be okay. It’s only a see you later”
Lord, will there be anyone who stays with me until the end?
Just don't forget that He gives the best to His children. It's hard now but maybe He is getting you ready for something better.