Trying to understand everything you feel is inherently hopeless

Trying to uncover emotions that are so hidden even to oneself remains the problem in most people’s life

I feel that to gain truth is the most amazing feeling in the world but comes with a price

The price that you pay is knowing that once you are out and you live in your truth there is no more hiding not even a little bit

The feeling is intense it makes you go to the darkest of places and then find yourself wanting to be saved from something you created

The worst feeling in the world is waiting and drowning in the emotions that you feel inside and then having that feeling that no matter how deep you fall or how hard you crash that you still have the feeling that no one will ever save you

To feel that lost is the most hopeless feeling in the world

But to be caught or to be saved is the most amazing feeling in the world

Someone somewhere is going to be the saving grace you need

Question is how much hopelessness can one person feel?

Before everything that you used to be or you know yourself to be is floating into an existence where you yourself then must save only you!

The root word of hopeless is HOPE

But how do you hold onto the hope without feeling

Hopeless? Is it all one in the same?

Does falling feel pointless?

Or is the main reason for falling so that you can feel the feeling you remember all too well when hopeless is the feeling that you felt every day in life before you were saved once before?