I Am Every Color

I was white in the beginning A hallow shell, a blank canvas A vast emptiness waiting to be filled At the core I’m red Passion and hate and anger and love Simmering one second, blazing the next Pink comes rarely A soft flirtation and blushing cheeks The distant longing to be longed for I’m orange at my best A joy that surges up and swells out It envelopes me in waves, pleasantly drowning me In the quiet I’m yellow Peacefully drifting on thoughts softened by memory Eyes closed to chaos, mind clutching calm I’m green on occasion That twisting, traitorous, snarling jealousy With a face of anger, a voice of hatred, and a shadow of fear Blue is like dying That endless sky without a star in sight An abyss where life and love surrender to despair I store my strength in violet Deep and true--durable, unbreakable Solid as gravity, keeping me tethered to hope I have a gray anger Like thick iron bars, like standing on a knife’s edge With a drop on each side and no way to balance There is solace in black The neutral zone where my colors convene The crossroads where my past sin meets my better self