I've tried. I've tried so hard to be your model older daughter.
(But I'm lying about that, aren't I?)
I bend over backwards, I drive across town, I work my ass off.
(But I'm so lazy.)
College changed me - I feel like I'm more mature, happier, more self-reliant.
(But I've changed and now you won't even be around me.)
I can't do this anymore. I can't push myself to my every extreme, toss and turn every which way, only to have YOU turn around and tell me that I'm not good enough.
(You can't believe I turned out this way, you wish you had done something different, I'm a compulsive liar and I sit on my butt all day and I never do anything because I'm a completely different person than I was last year.)
I missed you all so much. But it seems like you never noticed me leave.