I Don't Want To Remember Anymore
I can't even look at you
I can't think of you
I can't have anything to do with you
Or else the memories come
I don't want to remember
I want to forget it all
Start with a clean slate
I've grown tired
Of the pit in my stomach
As I partially look forward
To passing by you
But knowing all too well
You won't even look at me
Even though I know you see me
You won't meet my eyes
Won't offer a smile
And I can't stop the feeling
Of wanting to envelope myself
In your arms
To feel the stability of your chest
To feel safe
In a world that wants to consume me
I feel like I'm going to drown
That the floor will swallow me
And sometimes I wish
That it would
I wish I couldn't see you anymore
I wish I didn't have to look at you
And remember every single
Feeling of not being good enough
Every tear I shed over you
Someone who won't even look me in the eye
You know I'm hurting
You remember everything that I do
Yet you choose to ignore it
I suppose some people
Are better at ignoring the pain
Than others