I have, in my past, vowed never to love again
Perhaps because of the pain and heartache that is soon to follow
Or is it even the constant wonder if things will ever work out for us
I have, indeed, vowed never to love again
It was, most likely, the broken agony filling my soul
after being rejected for the millionth time
It was even, perchance, the not being rejected, but finally learning to trust
when the person you loved was finished with their shiny new toy
It may have been friends, that have come and gone, You know, the ones you will never forget but for them you're just an old winter's breeze
Maybe, in fact, it was the moving on of those around me, when all i wanted was for the world to be still
Or my father! perhaps it was him! the ache in my heart of never having someone to guide me, to protect me as if I was some valued treasure!
Or maybe it's just me? It seems that I was specifically created not to fit in
Never to be accepted
Never remembered and always forgotten
And that is why I believe
with every last fiber of my existence
That I am loved and secure and never rejected
If only by One, that would be enough
For God is my rock, my strength and foundation
He is my shield
And I cry on His shoulder in anytime of need
He is my joy, in my life of sorrows
he is the love of my life and we shall never part!
And although my heart is broken
He mends me still
teaching this hardened heart how to love again
I will run to Him when He calls
He is the only one, who has never totally abandoned me in this life
And I will learn His ways
in this
cold
dark 
world.
And forever, He will be my God