I Lost Myself Today

You would not like to know what lies in the depths of my soul And yet you want the truth. You do not understand what secrets that I hide. You ask why don’t I sleep, Why don’t I eat, Why can’t I weep anything but red tears? Dear friend, I haven’t known a moment’s peace in years. You ask what the voices say today, There has to be another way. It isn’t funny anymore, I’ve actually gone insane. Was I ever real? Did I ever really feel? Did I actually exist before forced to kneel At the base of my own mind? Every misstep I try to mend, even those that are not mine, I will fix everything, I just need a bit more time. Time, a sort of mocking rhyme, a sort of mocking moment, Slipped away like water, never really knew it. What is time, what’s this place, what is this ever spiraling space? I am lost.