I try NOT to HURT, to feel all the emptiness is better than when someone hurts you

Now I'm so empty, I can't feel hurt.

I WANT to feel it now, feel the tears roll down my scared face of previous tears,

BURNT like the golden metals kissing me

Am I a masochist?

I WANT to love someone with all my heart,

but what POISON leaves my heart beating like a dead leaf on the tree waiting it's impending fall?

I'm not worthy of being loved

I WANT to bring back TOXIC relationships,

who would want to be rediculed and bound to someone's words like iron fists?

Chained up mentally, and a domino effect kicks in

I WANT to see how far I can go,

see the mind's final boundaries before I am in EXCILE from sanity and have demolished my innocence.

lost in my own head

I WANT to feel HURT once more.