(poems go here)I WONDER

I wonder who I would be if I had a different life
a happy home
with a dad who didn’t hit me
a mom who stuck up for me
a sister who fought for me
with a family who loves me for me
and not for what they want me to be

I wonder what it would be like for people to except my flaws
My mistakes my dreams my beliefs
Let me be me
Express who I am
Instead of hiding my true self

I wonder what it really means to be happy
not just a simple smile
but the actual internal feeling of happy
happiness is what I dream of

I wonder if people would still like me
If I spoke more than a few words
Because I have a fear of being called stupid
again
it hurts enough that I get it from a father

I wonder if people knew the truth
I would receive sympathy
For the hell I go through
Throwing up when I see his car
In fear of what might happen to me

I wonder if my life will ever change
If ill ever live or raise a happy home
have a family that is peaceful
who loves each other for who they are
truly happy
never put one another down

I wonder