i write how i feel. no matter what the feeling may be.when i write, its my way of saying things that i would never say in person. yes most of the stuff i write may be depressing but i would rather write depressing stuff and let all my feelings out then hold it in and be depressed. so go ahead and say write more happier stuff. i know you mean well but you dont know what ive been through and what has happened to me. you look at me and think you see a happy person who smiles all the time but you dont know what goes on in this head of mine. its like i cant go a day when i dont wanna write something. and when i have a day like that i post a video that means something to me. if i couldnt write i dont what i would do what i would be. ill tell you this, i most definately wouldnt be the person you think i am. my writings express who i am. if dont get any of the stuff i write then u really dont get me at all. reading my works is like taking a glimpse into my heart, my mind. when i write its like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. its like i can share what i feel and not feel like im gonna be critized for what i say. which is why if no has noticed why i dont talk much unless im around a select few people. my friends know more about me than my own family. and why is that? because i write and when i write i tell them. and the best part of telling them about what i wrote: they dont judge! they completely understand why i write what i write. to u writing may be a hobby or something to do in your free time. to me though, writing is my LIFE. and when you finally understand why i write what i write then you will finally realize that you get me.