If I could kill two people on Earth

I'd kill you and me.

You for all the heartbreak you caused;

I drowned in the pain of my own tears. 

You for every time I saw you and ran to the bathroom and cried

Or heard you and tried to drown out the noise

Or heard your name and died a little more inside.

Because every time I see you 

My heart skips a beat and takes a bullet.

You because it hurts too much to dream 

That we could be together when you

"Hated dating me"(Discord, April 11).

 

And me because its the only way

To stop seeing you when I close my eyes

And hearing your voice in silence.

Me, because even the memories

I held onto for dearest life

Are tinted by hurt and loss and

Lies you couldnt bother to expell yourself.

 

And as to where we go-

One of us must go to heaven, the other to hell;

I can't spend eternity with you

Tantalizingly close forever

And I'm far too much a "bitch"(Discord, April 23)

To warrant your eternal company.

For my part, I hope I go to Hell

Becaue despite the monster you are

Someone as angelic as you can only go to heaven.

 

If I could kill two people on Earth

I'd kill you and me.

You to stop the hurting

And me to end the pain.