Just SHUT UP already
So because I dye my hair black
Wear too much makeup around my eyes
Put on pants that are just the tiniest bit too tight
And avoid the sun like the plague,
You think I’m depressed?
You think something’s wrong with me?
You think that because my music has more screams in it
Than cheery little repetitive syllables
I should see a counselor,
Be put on suicide watch?
Bull shit.
I’m just fine.
Dressing like this,
Acting like this,
Being this,
It makes me happy.
Now that girl over there,
The one with the big brown eyes
Light pink lip gloss
And Abercrombie outfit pieced together
By her agent that booked her a photo shoot tonight?
That girl is my sister.
That girl is a girl that has a smile like bubblegum and a laugh like cotton candy.
That girl is a girl that can wrap everyone around her little finger.
That girl is beautiful, perfect, a shining example of happiness.
And last night she swallowed half a bottle of pain meds instead of eating dinner.
Last night I got the call that they were trying to save her liver.
Last night when I had to call you, her teacher, and tell you,
and you asked me "what could possibly drive her to that"
I nearly screamed.
You are what is wrong.
You are the one with your idea of perfection
that you force her into
until she cries herself to sleep at night
and counts her ribs through her shirt.
So don’t you dare look at me
In my all black outfits
And tell me that I’m depressed
While my little sister
Who is by every definition perfect
Lays in a hospital bed on suicide watch.
So just shut up already.
I’m happy.
She’s not.