I gave you everything and it still wasn't enough
it was never
enough.
you made me feel like I was nothing.
made me believe
that I was difficult to love.
And like a fool I kept trying,
I kept trying till it became too much.
I got in so deep that I lost who I was

I knew it was lethal
I knew it wasn't right
But no matter how bad things got
I couldn't help but try
I told myself it would be different this time
I just couldn't give up
Constantly battling whether this is love or lust?
Cause if it's love...
Then why was ut so messed up?
I would treat myself like nothing
Yet to you
I gave so much
And then you go and break my heart
Tell me that you love me but we can't be together.
And like a fool I'd wait single.
Wait for the day you'd let me down.
A part of me wants to speak up,
But I hesitate.
It's like you're controlling me you've infected my brain.

how do I escape when you become part of my DNA?
even when you're gone
I'm Still the One left with all the pain.
She said
She's sorry
She told me that she's the only one left with the pain.
When I also feel the pain
The pain of what I did to her
Pain caused by her
And I choose to believe when she says I'm the love of her life.
I'm not expecting you to use words.
Go ahead
Judge me
But if I lose her
I'll have nobody
Do u get that?
Who wants to live a life where they're alone and empty?
I need her jst as much as she needs me.
In some sick twist of fate.
She completes me.
That's why it works
We Just keep going
Till one of us inevitably gets hurt
So yeah
I choose to love you
Go ahead and call me a playa.
I'm not expecting you to understand, just know that leaving someone,
is not that easy.
She's gotten into my mind and without her I'm paralysed.
To the point where I force myself to believe her every time she says I love you too
Even though it's hard to believe cause of no actions.
Every waking moment I shred tears
I've gotten used to it.
It doesn't hurt so much anymore but it hurts.
I've become numb to it
I've become sore.
And in some sick way
She's my only cure
What can I say?
I'm incredibly defective.
Love isn't like what you see on Tv
this is what it's like
this is based to my life
It's not as magical as it is on teen movies.
It's a lot of pain
and sacrifice.
You just keep pushing
until ur heart bleed.

I thought an hour ago that I love you more
than any man has ever loved a woman,
But half hour after that
I knew that what I felt
before was nothing
compared to what I felt then.
But ten minutes after that,
I understood that
my previous love
was a puddle campared to the
high seas before a storm.