I'm happy is a lie. 

I feel like a bird that can't fly.
everyday I put a smile on my face. 
I feel like my emotions are in a race. 
what is my worth?
do I belong on this earth?
There is no point in living like this! 
My life is like one clenched fist. 
so tight I can't breath. 
Is it really that hard to leave?
My eyes don't show pain.
Yet my brain is in the fast lane.
My heart leaps outta my chest.
I think my body needs to rest. 
I keep going like everything is fine. 
but I know I'm on a thin line.
What more is left ? 
The energy I had is bereft. 
I am all alone. 
I have no place to call my own. 
My life is one big joke!
I feel better when I smoke. 
Weed relaxes my mind. 
Now happy is redefined. 
I'm relaxed is sarcastic!
The weed I smoked got me brainsick. 
niggas say don't smoke your pain away! 
haha! Isn't that clique. 
But my high never stays!
Is this just a phase?
I feel happy now ! 
They ask how ? 
I wonder if I should reply
but I say because I'm happy is a lie!