You will never understand how damaging it was for a child to hear her father sobbing at night. To find letters from him begging you to stay. My father is, and always will be, my hero. But to see him so broken, to watch him age 10 years in mere months … I can never see him in quite the same light. there were our lives your four children set out as initials on a scrap of paper, the various directions of our futures drawn in arrows would you leave us with Dad and start a new family? Would you take us with you and leave him all alone? Nothing, in the 16 years of my life, has hurt me as much as that piece of paper. I saw myself as nothing to you but baggage to be organised around your new life. I truly don’t get it... I honestly don’t everything I thought how you viewed things wasn’t the same of what you did. You preached to the choir you PROMISED never again you would bring back the past with the pain you caused and now I sit here listening to the sound of your kids slowly breaking... slowly dying inside and they shouldn’t be dealing with the guilt of you leaving. Ya ya you know dam well you could of never left that easily with your new life. New man , new dog trying to replace something you will never. Children shouldn’t have to sacrifice so that you can have the life you want. You make sacrifices so your children can have the life they deserve. The behaviour and emotions and depression that comes with the choice you made we have to deal with? We suffer? I have to sit down every night and cry... cry and think to myself was everything you ever told me just something so you can have this because it’s what you wanted. If you had a choice you would of never got married at 19 never had me and you wouldn’t of had to deal with this but you know deep down in your heart you were never truly happy because you needed the replacement of shoes and materialistic stuff to make yourself happy. But of course you love us. Yes we love you too but the pain you put me through of you not only leaving but the pain of feeling abandoned and feeling empty because you had to bring another man into your life because you can’t handle to be alone because it eats you up inside it makes you feel so lonely that you turn everyone who truly loved you away. So you don’t deserve my attention because you clearly care for his more then your own. It’s sad even the dog is neglected. You broke the one vow, that when you married Dad. To love and to hold even when your in doubt you has a family. Not a perfect one but who ever is but you could of sacrificed because you know in your heart Dad loves you. But truth is you never really loved Dad nor yourself. Could be really replace your husband of 17 years. As long as your happy go be happy but when you realize you made the biggest t mistake of your life and messed up your kids and your family.