Looking Forward
Floating in the sea,
I’m happy
The familiarity of the ocean drowns me
with a feeling love
The sound of the waves
soothed me
The surrounding water
hugged me with comfort
But then it hits,
a giant wave
Confused. Lost. Disoriented.
Saltwater plugged my ears
Waves that once soothed me
made a deafening sound
Saltwater filled my lungs
Water that once hugged me
dragged me under
The thing that I once loved
Was now hurting me
Was it worth it?
Trying to stay afloat,
letting waves take over me;
enduring the pain
Holding my breath,
unsure of the next time
I could breathe
Pretending the ocean was kind,
trying to heal me;
kissing my open wounds away
But I forgot,
saltwater stings.
I swim away
Trying to leave the water behind
Each wave drags me back,
reminding me of memories we once shared
But I persevered
With each stroke and streak,
I was shedding a part of me
that longed to be held to,
but was ready to fall off.
It was time to let go of the past
and look to the future
I reached the shore,
the sand offered me a warm welcome
As I look towards the horizon,
the sun was setting
I smile,
it looks bright.