the man that caused me to change

The memories play back in my head, over and over again

I am constantly reminded of what I once was, but no longer am

The thoughts dim and quite, yet realistic and vivid

Seeing him in my dream brought millions of thoughts of how I once used to be;

fearless, happy, and maybe sometimes sweet

Thinking of him gave me butterflies in my stomach, yet in person his face brought me hate

When he left my life I wanted to feel the same and not experience the pain

But instead he changed me and left me with the thought of him

Mad because I left my friends for him, lost trust with my parents for him, lost me and became him

I turned into what he wanted so when he no longer wanted me I was destroyed

I hide behind a fascade of happiness because I don't want them to know they were right

scared, hurt, and maybe sometimes fragile

But you will never see that, all I can do is smile and wait

wait for me to be me and no longer him

But its over now and forever will be

He forgot me now and all I have is my dreams

so I must , I will 

                              Break Free