The me that I hate
I can’t focus
I can get motivation to do my work
I feel so angry, so violent
I find myself having detestable thoughts
I feel so guilty and I hate myself being like this but I just can’t stop
I feel like a disagreeable burden to my friends and everyone around me
I am so angry
I am so angry
And I don’t know why
I just feel so useless and detestable but I can’t stop being rude
I want to hit things and yell some insults
I feel imprisoned and I have this incontrollable desire to break free
Or to break down
Self-destruction
Anger blinds me and I think of death and violence
Are you a part of me detestable anger?
Do you belong here?
Why am I like this?
Why can’t I be like them?