missing ghosts
no one ever told me I'd miss my ghosts.
she dampened me, hindered me, hollowed me out
but at least,
the red reminded me,
i was alive.
no one ever told me I'd miss
the mess.
the dirty clothes on the floor,
the red stains on metal,
i miss not being able to breathe as I sobbed
no one ever told me I'd miss being sad, because now
i feel nothing at all.