Mulatto
The stares, felt on my skin as if being pricked a dozen times by a needle
One dozen pricks per penetrating glance
Noticed by me in my peripheral, but ignored by choice.
We walk side by side
Like we have a secret very few are able to piece together
Our bond, strong, obvious, yet the gazes of the colorblind glaze over it
“It can’t be grey, it’s either black or white
Those are the only colors to be seen, right?”
Grey would be an unfamiliar mix of the only two colors they have been trained to see
Or rather, the only ones they have chosen to see.
Their monotonous worlds suddenly confused when we tread by,
Like mother and daughter should.
But something’s off
We lack that matching feature, leaving our relationship too ridiculous to find credible.
People the color red come to speak to me in their red language
Mistaking me as red
I reply, to their surprise, in my own language.
I speak to them in a mixture, my tongue like Picasso,
Rearranging the structure to my liking,
An interesting picture must be it to see
They scramble to piece together my words
They can’t help but ask, what am I?
What am I?
Again, I reply in sentences, too abstract for them to comprehend
Making them bend their consciousness in ways unimagined
They speak amongst their red tongues, scrutinizing the way we are
When they finally figure it out, they ask me to choose,
Which color am I more like?
As if I can simply just divide myself to their liking,
So they can go back to their black or white lives knowing I am one or the other.
What am I?
I am a mixture, I am neither simply black nor white nor red nor any other color in the spectrum
Art. I remember the lessons taught to me as a child about the color wheel.
The lessons about primary colors, secondary, tertiary
Why did no one grasp that the concept applied as much to people
What am I?
I am grey.
No longer do I draw in black ink onto white paper or white chalk on a black board
To simplify my story.
I shade in every drawing, give it dimension, make it fat with character, complicate it
Darker in some areas, lighter in others
Because what fun is it to stare
At the same two colors when there’s a whole rainbow
Begging to show itself
So I walk past the gazes and gasps and gaping mouths of the generations
Who can’t seem to grasp that there is more than just black and white.
I walk with my mother and father, both from opposite ends of the color wheel
Who have seen the rainbow show off it’s colors
Me, the work of art created from the vibrant colors, invisible to the masses.
