My Deepest Feeling

I hide behind a smile 

Many times I just want to cry

Not be able to tell my friends

And almost being ignored by family

They really don’t care

About my pain

Filled with so much pain 

I try to keep a smile

Trying to keep a straight face and not cry

I try not to worry my friends

Nor family

Sometime my expression may show, and some will care

Never knowing how much they care

I am being tortured inside with pain

Sometimes I can’t even smile

I start to cry

Making excuse that I am tired to my friends

And needing my family

But we can’t always count on family

They don’t know how to care

I am always in pain

They don’t care for a smile

Or when I cry

I feel as if I don’t have friends

Not understanding my friends

Having a family

Who doesn’t care

Unknowingly having pain 

I can never smile 

But cry

Finding other option than crying

Opening up my emotion to friends 

And family

I realize they actually care

No result on what causes my pain

Trying to stay positive and smile