“What are you doing here freak” they says from behind me.

“No one wants you here” he says.

“No one cares about you” she says.

“You’re better off dead” is what they all scream.

Or is that what I hear.

I don’t know or do I care

Because in the end that is what they really mean.

 They really want me to die

 And maybe they are right.

 May be I should just die.

 No one would care.

 Just like they said ‘no one would care’ and it’s true.

 No one would care if I did die

No one ever cares.

Why do they keep doing this?

Why do they hate me so much?

Why do they want me to die?

What did I ever do to them to make them hate me so much?

I never did anything to them

I have never hurt them

I have never caused them pain

Why do they hate me so much?

They see me cry and they laugh

They laugh at the girl crying in the hallway

Because someone said something that hurt her really bad

They see me with my throat bruised

And they make a joke about it

But little did they know

That was the result of me trying to end my life

That was a result of me trying to end my pain

And I would have to if it wasn’t for her

The girl who ran in

And saw me with a rope around my neck

She ran to me and begged me to get down

And she looked at me like she really cared

Like she really cared if I lived or died

I stared at her with tears running down my cheeks

Tears which showed how truly broken I was

Tears which showed how much I was suffering on the inside

She continued to beg for me to come down

She continued to fight for my life

Even though I believe the world would be a better place without me

She still fought for me

Something no one has ever done before

Shaking my head I looked at the ground

Trying not to believe that someone really cares for me

And really does care if I lived

I hear her walk towards me

But I still don’t move

I feel her grab my arm

But I still don’t look at her

I see her gently undo the rope around my neck

And watch as it drops to the floor

She grabs me and pulls me to her hugging me

Telling me it’s okay

As I cry into her shoulder

As I cry out all my pain

“Why would you try and end your life” she asked

“Why wouldn’t I” was my only answer

I couldn’t really point out one thing that would make me do this

Because there was not just one answer

I wonder why she didn’t let me end my life

Why she didn’t let me hang myself

And why she didn’t let me die

She was the only one I know that wouldn’t let me do this

But I don’t know why

I don’t understand why she didn’t let me kill myself

 But at the same time I’m glad she didn’t

Because in truth I didn’t want to

In truth I just wanted it all to stop

For all the pain to stop

I wanted the bullying to stop

I wanted the pain to stop

I wanted the hateful words they shout

To stop

And I wanted to be loved

I wanted someone to care

And she knew that

She saw what I was

The broken girl I was

And she fixed me

She fixed me and made me new

She freed me from the prison I was

The prison where I got called names

The prison where I got beat and tortured

Where I was forced to suffer in until someone thought I was worth saving

She saved me

She thought I was worth saving

She said she became my friend that day

But really she became my savior

Because she saved me from the darkness of my life

And every day I ask her why she didn’t let me die

Why she didn’t let me end my life

And she answers “why wouldn’t I”